Hungry for music

The need to create a musical instrument has become almost an all-consuming obsession. I was given a miniature tambourine and rattle by my sister, but due to their size and construction, I haven’t been able to use them. My mother gave me a larger tambourine and hand drum, and I have spent many hours imagining how I would alter them to create a customized magical tool.

The drum has a handle on it, but it feels wrong. I want to remove it so that I can grasp the drum by the frame — and hang charms or other objects where the handle was. It also has wire springs inside that create a rasping sound when it is played, but I am not sure if I should remove them or not. There is also a price written on it, and a price tag on one side that needs to go. The frame and skin appears to be plastic, which saddens me because I had hoped to find or procure a drum made of natural materials in order to paint, wood burn, or decorate it properly. But at this time I can’t afford to buy a wooden frame drum with a goat or calf’s skin head.

I haven’t started working on the drum yet due to time constrains, I want to ritually work each step carefully, so that it dedicates it to me, and establishes a relationship with the drum.

The tambourine is more difficult to work with, or to alter in part because of the zils that grace its sides are a harsh, almost angry sound. I tried holding it but the energy coursing off this instrument was not welcoming or happy. Small wonder considering it was given to me by my mother, anything she has given me has felt similar. I want to heal its pain, but I am not sure how. I will have to sit with it and try to determine the exact cause for it to be so upset, and how I can help to fix it.

Maybe once I can clean them both up, and interact with them, then I will know more.

About darkbookworm13

I am a proud mom to 3 beautiful girls, and married to the love of my life. I have been a practicing Witch since the summer of 2003, having studied many different paths over the years, ranging from Wicca, Goddess only worship (courtesy of StarHawk), Eclectic Paganism, Kitchen Witchcraft, Norse Paganism, Hearthcraft, Spiritual Luciferianism, and more. I have worked with the Futhark runes, Brian Froud's Faeries Oracle deck, Tarot decks, and I am currently working on a customized divination set based on collected items. I like to work with herbs, and gardening. I crochet and make handicrafts like wood burned items, paintings, drawings, toys, and hand sewn doll clothes for my daughters. The only title I call my spiritual path is Witchcraft, as using magic entwines deeply with the worship of the Gods who call me Their own. My Patron deity is Loki, who has chosen me as His kin.
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