I feel at a loss as to what to write today, woke up in a lot of pain, and have been trying to function all day. My neck, upper back, and left shoulder are all stiff and achy like I lifted weights all night long (with a nursling bed-mate who wants to switch sides all night, I did…) and barely slept all night because of it.
Any movement seems to make it worse, but it is hard to avoid if I have to lift my two younger kids all day and whatnot. As I write this I have a muscle twitch in my back below my shoulder blade that feels like a guitar string is being strummed, quite annoying and painful. Ugh, I had forgotten my pain because I had several “normal” days compared to this, and now I am feeling it big time.
I got a bit of time outside today, and even got to clean up some trash around the apartments. I intended on only cleaning up around the dumpster and removing the plastic trash bag from the bushes to prevent animals from being injured. I ended up scouring the ground from one end to the other, and found enough trash to pack the plastic bag I found tightly. Might be why I am sore now, but I couldn’t abide leaving it the way it was, bits of Styrofoam, Popsicle wrappers, and much more…
It somehow always surprises me when I have this pain, as if out of the blue, instead of a chronic thing that boomerangs back at me… I hate it, I can’t exercise, play with my kids, clean my house, care for my kids, cook, or care for our pets when I can barely move.
Anyways, not much else going on, just struggling to move at all today.