This past month of honoring Loki has been eye-opening, I have come to realize that until I started this blog, and made myself take the time to focus on this, I had never truly put my money where my mouth is. I had never walked the walk, or delved into the deeper reasons of why I believed something, or worshiped Someone. I just did it, and wondered what was missing.
Now I know, if I want a connection with anything or Anyone, I need to bust my ass working at it, because no scrolls will fall from the heavens, no beams of light will flood my mind with knowledge (if it did, I would probably end up like the bad guys in “The Raiders of the Lost Ark” movie), and no easy way to attain whatever next part of my path I am supposed to.
I feel exhausted, wrung out, thrilled, and excited that I participated in the Month for Loki, and feel like I have been able to take this month to hammer out my relationship with Him. Inspiring me to want to work on my connections to the other deities Who have gotten my attention, as well as focusing on my collection again. It has been quite neglected due to everything going on (illness, etc.), but I want to finish it now in order to talk to Loki, the Spirits, and Whoever else might be trying to get a hold of me.
Earlier I asked Him “Why me, looking at the sheer enormity of what I have gone through, why did you pick me? Why have I struggled with so much?”
His answer was simple, no one else could have survived it. Every obstacle, pain, trial, growing period, all of it forged me like steel in a blast furnace. I was compressed, stretched, bent double, and heated so many times I lost count, but others who have gone through the same have turned to ash and dust.
And I am so grateful for His help in surviving, Hail Loki!