Late night thoughts

In the aftermath of my husband working and fussy kids, I tried to ground myself at bedtime by tucking my former beads under my pillow, and a polished piece of petrified wood that I have had since I was a child (I got it at the aquarium’s gift shop in Oregon).

I had unpacked them both from the wooden truck that held them for so long, and wanted to reconnect with the specialness that they represent to me. But alas, it was not meant to happen. As I lay down with them under my pillow, I was overcome with such severe vertigo and nausea, I almost threw up onto the floor. I tried removing the beads to test out the petrified wood alone, but the nauseated feeling stayed put. I tried only the beads alone, and the same thing happened.

I removed both of them from my bed completely, and it went away. Being the skeptical, tired, not-getting-the-hint-type that I am well known for, I tried them each one more time.

Same thing… This thick skull got the hint though, and both of these things are not going back in my bed anytime soon. At least not without some major cleansing, analyzing why these feelings happened, and time to reconnect with them in another way to determine how best to go about it.

Perhaps it is time to retire my beads completely, and recycle them into something new. Or make a permanent offering of them. Hmmm, need to think about this.

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About darkbookworm13

I am a proud mom to 3 beautiful girls, and married to the love of my life. I have been a practicing Witch since the summer of 2003, having studied many different paths over the years, ranging from Wicca, Goddess only worship (courtesy of StarHawk), Eclectic Paganism, Kitchen Witchcraft, Norse Paganism, Hearthcraft, Spiritual Luciferianism, and more. I have worked with the Futhark runes, Brian Froud's Faeries Oracle deck, Tarot decks, and I am currently working on a customized divination set based on collected items. I like to work with herbs, and gardening. I crochet and make handicrafts like wood burned items, paintings, drawings, toys, and hand sewn doll clothes for my daughters. The only title I call my spiritual path is Witchcraft, as using magic entwines deeply with the worship of the Gods who call me Their own. My Patron deity is Loki, who has chosen me as His kin.
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2 Responses to Late night thoughts

  1. moonfire2012 says:

    That’s really disturbing and I’m glad the sickness went away when you removed the beads. I’d like to know what’s causing them to have that effect.I had something similar happen last spring when I woke up to severe vertigo where my head wouldn’t stop spinning. It scared me so bad I went to the ER. They couldn’t find anything wrong with me and said I was only having a panick attack.But I’ve never felt this ongoing kind of diziness before, where it feels like you’re rolling down a hill for hours. When I went back home and laid down, I was hit by severe vomiting. I don’t know what caused it to this day and I got better the next day. I hope I never go through that again. I’d suggest ginger for the dizziness, it does help.

    • I don’t know, when I tried using them in my hand for a prayer they started to feel like they were burning or all hot and tingly. I don’t have these reactions to the stone beads I used to make them, so I am not sure why they cause it in this form.

      http://darkbookworm26.deviantart.com/art/meditation-beads-269400776

      My DA profile explains what stones I used, and the picture of what they look like. Part of me is worried I might end up needing to take them apart, to prevent this from happening again.

      I had just finished a new bead strand today, I hand-crimped beads onto a chain and built it to honor Loki and His kin. Maybe this happening with my old strand is an emphatic sign?

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