Is this a lull? Why is everything so quiet?

Don’t let that title fool you though, my home is so often not quiet, that I’m not sure I have experienced more than one episode of  that during this year.

My two youngest girls have discovered playing together, and are often chasing each other around the living room, climbing all over everything, wrestling with each other, screaming with laughter or unintelligible words as they careen from one end of the room that is mostly morphed into a play area for them. We have a baby gate up in the doorway, in order to keep them contained enough to save my sanity and stamina from chasing them up and down the stairs all day long. That and my 15 month old knows how to go up the stairs by crawling as fast as possible, but she lacks the know-how to get down them.

Knowing she could fall gives me panic attacks and heart palpitations, so I try to avoid her being on the stairs unless I can handle those thoughts.

Anyways…

Back to things feeling quiet.

I have been making offerings each day of tea with sugar and rum in it, fresh water, a few pieces of candy, and a portion of my food.

I have been sewing up Tarot bags all week, and enjoying the way the 2 decks I have shuffle so nicely.

I dug out my gemstone rune set yesterday, and drew 3… Mannaz, Thurisaz, and Jera.

But I don’t remember what they mean >_<

I don’t remember any dreams from recent times aside from a nightmare about murdering my ex-mother-in-law in a brutal fashion, and realizing my eldest saw everything. The dream ended as she decided to live with my ex.

I haven’t had anymore mishaps with fire, or accidents aside from knocking my feet against something hard about once a day. So mostly the usual stuff.

When I try to close my eyes to envision Loki, I feel static, and nothing happens.

I have felt an urge to play my ocarina and drum, but when I held my drum and ocarina, I just felt like it wasn’t the right time, so I put them away. My ocarina lives in the large leather bag I sewed awhile back for the collection that never finished forming, and my drum has claimed a red satin diaper bag with Asian themed embroidery all over it, however, neither seem to want to be played. *shrug*

Is this a fallow time, or am I just chasing shadows? I don’t feel overly worried about the quietude, but it is disconcerting as time goes on, and the chattering loudness I have experienced in the past doesn’t start up again.

The song that popped into my head is from The Nightmare Before Christmas where Jack discovers Christmas-town. I have no idea what to do with this feeling of quiet, and dare I say it, peace…

About darkbookworm13

I am a proud mom to 3 beautiful girls, and married to the love of my life. I have been a practicing Witch since the summer of 2003, having studied many different paths over the years, ranging from Wicca, Goddess only worship (courtesy of StarHawk), Eclectic Paganism, Kitchen Witchcraft, Norse Paganism, Hearthcraft, Spiritual Luciferianism, and more. I have worked with the Futhark runes, Brian Froud's Faeries Oracle deck, Tarot decks, and I am currently working on a customized divination set based on collected items. I like to work with herbs, and gardening. I crochet and make handicrafts like wood burned items, paintings, drawings, toys, and hand sewn doll clothes for my daughters. The only title I call my spiritual path is Witchcraft, as using magic entwines deeply with the worship of the Gods who call me Their own. My Patron deity is Loki, who has chosen me as His kin.
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