Category Archives: PTSD

A deal with the Devil

In my past, there was a time where I became so abused with Christianity that I went in the other direction. The motto “The enemy of my enemy is my friend” resonated with me then, and still does now. I … Continue reading

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Sleeping unrestfully

Sleep and I have a love/hate relationship, from as far back as I can remember I have struggled to enjoy sleeping. I sought medical help about two years ago, and in seeking a doctor to explain why I felt this … Continue reading

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Health misadventures, dreams, and stuff

Life has taken some interesting twists lately, mostly into “Am-I-going-to-die-ville” with stops at the ER mingled with increased insomnia, panic attacks, counselling, odd dreams I cannot remember when I wake up, and my first attempt to start a fiction story. … Continue reading

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Corridors of Madness

Last night I was triggered for the first time in a long time into a spiral of memories about my past. I lay next to my husband to try and get some cuddles and rest before my nursling awoke again, … Continue reading

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Asking for help

I have wrestled with my health and physical limits for so long, I had forgotten how to ask for help when I need it. I feel discouraged and frustrated because my body cannot perform as it is supposed to, and … Continue reading

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That time of year again

In my family it is the wonderfully cheerful time of year known as Mother’s Day. With my husband and children it is a relaxing day of a few gifts, cuddles and lots of love. With my parents and siblings, however, … Continue reading

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Rant

Ok, I have been doing my best not to become political on this blog, I vote on what I believe in, sign petitions, and try to keep up on the important issues, but I am tired. These recent gun related … Continue reading

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The broken living….

****Warning, this contains my memories of abuse, can be a trigger for others who have been abused as well.**** I write this after a fun filled morning of egg hunts and treats with my children, hugs and kisses of celebration … Continue reading

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