Category Archives: The Past

Self-Harm Trigger Warning: Brace yourself, I’m pissed off and anxious now…

My mother just messaged me online to let me know my youngest brother is currently going through a mental health crisis, and threatening self-harm. After telling me that he had never gotten over his ex-girlfriend’s suicide attempt, and couldn’t be … Continue reading

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This 3000 Year Old Amulet Kind of Looks Like a Gummy Bear

Originally posted on TwistedSifter:
Photographer Unknown via innuendoPL ? The story goes that this amber bear amulet was found in 1887 in a peat bog near Slupsk, a city in northern Poland. The amber bear is believed to be from…

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A deal with the Devil

In my past, there was a time where I became so abused with Christianity that I went in the other direction. The motto “The enemy of my enemy is my friend” resonated with me then, and still does now. I … Continue reading

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Health misadventures, dreams, and stuff

Life has taken some interesting twists lately, mostly into “Am-I-going-to-die-ville” with stops at the ER mingled with increased insomnia, panic attacks, counselling, odd dreams I cannot remember when I wake up, and my first attempt to start a fiction story. … Continue reading

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Anniversary of loss

This post was in the works last night, but my web browser kept crashing, so many times in fact, that I took it as a sign I should wait to post this. Yesterday was the 18th anniversary of my Granny … Continue reading

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Corridors of Madness

Last night I was triggered for the first time in a long time into a spiral of memories about my past. I lay next to my husband to try and get some cuddles and rest before my nursling awoke again, … Continue reading

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Asking for help

I have wrestled with my health and physical limits for so long, I had forgotten how to ask for help when I need it. I feel discouraged and frustrated because my body cannot perform as it is supposed to, and … Continue reading

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Memories of the Ocean

I was reading more of the Jotunbok during a moment I slunk away to use the bathroom, and got to read about Aegir and His wife Ran, and Their nine daughters: Kolga, the Cold One, Duva, the Hidden One,Blodughadda the … Continue reading

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Loki day 23

(I have had this in draft form since I first began this blog, but now seems like the perfect time to use it.) I must confess that I used to have misconceptions about what my life would be like as … Continue reading

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Today pt. 2

Today has been a chaotic day topped with heaping piles of stress and fury rolled into a messy pile of shit. My eldest daughter sees a counselor for Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and told her counselor this morning that my ex … Continue reading

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